The husband and I were making dinner yesterday when we decided to have the talk. For any woman in my situation, you know the talk that I am referring to: Whether or not to continue on towards in-vitro fertilization (IVF) or quitting altogether and see what happens after a break. At this point, we are fully immersed in the pool. Although the cost of IVF has us a bit concerned, we decided that we should just go for it. At this point, we have nothing to lose.
My period is due tomorrow so I asked if I should throw the "hail mary" in the morning just to see so we can move forward with the plan. Yep. Before bed last night, I placed the wrapped pregnancy test atop of the toilet in preparation of the morning's fate. Oddly enough, I slept well.
I woke up this morning at 05:00 and shuffled my feet into the bathroom and flicked on the light. I unwrapped the pregnancy test and peed on what I've been told is the most sophisticated technology that I'll ever pee on. Half asleep, I bring the test up and place the cap on. What the... no way. I finish up and look again. HUH? I brush my teeth. When I took a final look, I screamed. I screamed so loud that my husband nearly jumped out of bed and said, "Is someone in the house??" I took a step back; composed myself and said in my calmest voice possible: "No, but could you please come here; I need your eyes."
He slowly got out of bed and strolled on over, half asleep, and squinting from the bright neon lights of the bathroom. "What do you see; a plus sign or a minus sign?" He bent over to look at the test on the sink. He looked over at me and said, "It's a plus sign; what does that mean?" Sure I just went to the bathroom, but I thought that I was going to wet my pants all over again. "It means we're pregnant!!!!" All of a sudden, the sleep that was once overcoming his body seemed to jump out the window and I got the "HOLY SH*T!!" I took a picture of the pregnancy test and continued my day.
It seems strange to say, but after all this time of trying, I cannot believe that I'm finally at this point. There's no looking back now. I'm still shaking as I type this. Wow. Keep those heads up, fellow women out there who are going through this. Just keep them up.
